disapointed

Merde, merde, merde...

Do you wanna read the nice news first?

I got a friend...

Now the bad ones... It's Alien, he managed to get a girlfriend and it's not me!

Well... Fact is: I'm not heartbroken................but I'm disapointed.

I so much wished to find a boyfriend and now, when there finaly seemed to be one who is interesting.... well shit happens.

Of course it is nice that I'm not heartbroken.
And I was very fair, wasn't I? I wasn't certain about my feelings, so I didn't encourage him. And now we are both not heartbroken...
But he is happy now and I'm disapointed.

Didn't that guy who picked one of my eyelashes say, that I'm a girl that every man wants to have?

But then, it's love right? It is not a matter of calculation, it's one of fate. If you fall in love you just can't help it. So how can I be angry?
I'll have a friend. And he's certainly going to be a very nice one.
As ever I take care of my heart (that's the one thing I'm really good in ; ), and everything is going to be alright.
There's lots of men here and there will be one for me too. I'm in no hurry.... I've seven years to pick... maybe even more.

But... maybe next time I will not take care of those boys hearts anymore. I'll go and make them madly in love with me and then... I'll make my decision, and if it's negative... well all in love is fair!

It will always be hard to get me. For I'm worth the effort.