Fear

This is a post I planned already long time ago... I forgot about it somehow... but now I remebered and here it is:

I have a lot of friends with fears. One is afraid of heights, some of spiders, snakes, frogs... some think they have a soziophobia...
Well... I am not a very frightend person. I have some big respect for unpopular animals, but I'm not afraid of them. I can cross a street while the light is red and if a car is stopping fast before me, I'm not really shocked. I love to look down form hight places, am very confortable in elevators and airplanes. I have nothing against dark streets and can face even unsharp shadows in these dark streets.  I have certainly no soziophobia and I don't feel hunted if I see a familiar face more then twice a day.
And I'm also neither afraid of death nor of dying. ( That's a thing I'm quite certain about, for I think about those things and maybe that's why I don't fear them. But if a reader does not belive this, no problem.)
Maybe a reader might guess and say that I'm afraid of sadness.... but that's not true... I don't really like to be sad, that's right. But I think without sadness there is no happyness, and so we can bear it and grow in it, to smile even brighter when it has passed.

No, what I'm most afraid of is: Lonelyness

I mean, I like to be lonely sometimes, I have to be lonely in some moments, and I don't need to meet people everyday. I mean the real lonelyness.... when you don't speak to a person for three weeks and nobody seems to miss you.

That's realy scary to me.