Thinking and speaking

Oh my god!!! I'm such a slut... why do I talk without thinking?
How could I act like this?
I was not drunken, I had no drugs... there's no excuse.
The worst is: I hurt my friend, although I promised my self never to hurt him.

My friend. He's so quiet, so young, so easy to hurt. I like him so much and want to protect him.
But then, without thinking I say something... and I know that it will hurt him... I know it... I just forgot how much.
I forgot that it will hurt him, like lot of people hurt me.... and I forgot, that it will be so hart to win his trust again.

How could I do it?

I'm sorry

but sorry is not enough...

the worst thing is, this will happen again...

Sometimes one just says things one will regrett. And as soon as one said it, it's too late, one can't take it back anymore.

merde